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“It felt like I was being disciplined for showing any sign of emotional distress.”

Content warning: sexual violence, bereavement

Author wishes to remain anonymous


I was gang raped. Then 4 close members of my family died within 12 months of each other. I was devastated.

I started self-harming due to the trauma. I was sectioned and told I had borderline personality disorder [BPD]. This label caused me to think there was something wrong with me; I was filled with shame and embarrassment that I was so flawed.

DBT [Dialectical Behavioural Therapy, a type of talking therapy] was recommended to “teach me” how to not be so upset. It was awful, I felt like I was being told off and disciplined for showing any sign of emotional distress.

Even in 1:1 therapy with a counselling psychologist anytime I mentioned being upset I was told it was because I was a borderline, that I would have this condition for life, that it was unlikely I would ever have a full time job.

I haven’t been to a GP since; BPD is written all over my files and I’m scared they won’t believe anything I say.

It’s taken 5 years to recover from the trauma (of the inpatient stay). I found the diagnosis and treatment more traumatic than the rape or family deaths. I still have flashbacks of “treatment” and get panic attacks if I’m in any sort of clinical room that looks like the ward I was on.

I haven’t been to a GP since because not only am I scared of triggering myself, but I’m so ashamed that BPD is written all over my medical files and they won’t believe anything I say.

I am disgusted that the label of BPD/EUPD exists in this day and age.


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